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REMEMBRANCE “LOSING MY SISTER”

OUR DAILY WISDOM WORD TODAY IS REMEMBRANCE.  I LOST MY SISTER EXACTLY ONE YEAR AGO TOMORROW.  I KNOW WHEN WE LOSE SOMEONE, IT IS COMMON TO IDOLIZE THEIR QUALITIES AND REMEMBER ONLY THE GOOD.  HOWEVER IN THIS CASE, SHE WAS SUCH A LOSS IN MY LIFE.  SHE HELD THE TREASURES OF OUR CHILDHOOD MEMORIES.  SHE HELD THE BEAUTY OF A SOUL THAT NEVER KNEW DEFEAT.

UNTIL SHE TOOK HER LAST BREATH JUNE 27TH, 2020, SHE SHOWED SO MUCH STRENGTH IN SO MUCH PAIN.  HOW SHE DID THIS WAS BEYOND ME. 

WHEN SHE WAS 51 YEARS OLD SHE FOUND OUT SHE HAD CANCER.  HER CANCER TYPE WAS CALLED SQUAMISH CELL CARCINOMA AND STARTED WITH AN INNOCENT CANKER SORE.  WHEN IT DID NOT GO AWAY IN A MONTH GRADUALLY GETTING WORSE, SHE WENT TO THE DENTIST.  THE DENTIST SAID IT DIDN’T LOOK LIKE A NORMAL MOUTH SORE AND SENT HER TO AN EAR, NOSE AND THROAT SPECIALIST.  IT WAS THEN SHE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH CANCER AFTER A BIOPSY.  MEANWHILE, HER LIFE WAS FINALLY MOVING TO AN EASIER STAGE. 

SHE RAISED TWO BEAUTIFUL GIRLS ALONE, AND LOST ONE GIRL PRIOR TO GIVING BIRTH TO THEM TO SIDS.  YES, THAT’S RIGHT.  SHE LOST A CHILD, WHICH CAUSED HER SUCH FEAR AS SHE RAISED HER TWO GIRLS.  I DON’T KNOW HOW SHE DID IT, BUT SHE PACKED A LIFETIME IN A DAY, EVERY DAY.  SHE HAD SUCH WISDOM AND MANAGED TO WORK 50-60 HOURS A WEEK, COME HOME AND COOK DINNER, AND HELP HER GIRLS WITH WHATEVER THEY NEEDED. 

LIFE DID NOT DEAL HER A FAIR HAND.  SHE WORKED SO HARD, AND MANAGED TO SUPPORT HER GIRLS ALONE, SOMEHOW SHE FOUND TIME TO FOLLOW HER DREAM WHICH WAS TO WRITE AND SING, MAKING MUSIC.  IF YOU GOOGLE JENNIFER GYPSY RACCO, YOU WILL FIND HER SONGS.  I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW SHE ALSO LEARNED TO BE A GOURMET COOK IN THE INTERIM.  I ALSO CAN’T COMPREHEND HOW SHE FOUND TIME FOR THOSE WHO NEEDED HER INCLUDING ME. 

IF I EVER NEEDED ADVICE, I TURNED TO THE ONE PERSON I TRUSTED TO KEEP MY SECRETS, SECRET.  SHE ALWAYS KNEW JUST WHAT TO SAY TO HELP ME AND HER ADVICE WAS SOLID.  NO MATTER WHEN I CALLED, SHE MADE TIME.  THIS IS WHY I USE THE LINE IN REMEMBRANCE, SHE “LIVED A LIFETIME IN EVERY SINGLE DAY” MAKING THE MOST OF MINUTES THAT SOME OF US INCLUDING MYSELF DON’T ALWAYS APPRECIATE. 

SHE WAS SO VERY SMART  BORN WITH AN AMAZING WISDOM THAT HELPED ANYONE WHO NEEDED IT.  WHEN I THINK OF HER, MY EYES STILL WELL UP WITH TEARS.  I LOOK AT THE AMAZING GIRLS SHE LEFT BEHIND, EACH SUCCESSFUL AND INDEPENDENT AND SO VERY STRONG.  THE GIRLS ARE VERY DIFFERENT FROM ONE ANOTHER, AND I WONDER OFTEN WHERE THEY GOT SUCH DIVERSITY AND CHARACTER,  IT ALL CAN BE TRACED TO MY SISTER’S DIVERSITY.  SHE WAS NEVER EVER AFRAID TO BE “HERSELF”.  SHE CHANGED HER NAME TO GYPSY FOR HER SINGING CAREER WHEN SHE WAS 20 YEARS OLD.  SHE EVENTUALLY LANDED IN LOS ANGELES, A CITY PERFECT FOR HER AS SHE LOVED THE OCEAN SO MUCH. 

SHE FELT THE PULL TO THE WATER WHENEVER SHE NEEDED TO THINK.  HER ASHES WERE SPREAD IN THE OCEAN JUST AS SHE WANTED.  MY LITTLE SISTER WAS BEAUTIFUL IN SO MANY WAYS, BUT SHE WAS ALSO BEAUTIFUL TO SEE AND TOOK YOUR BREATH AWAY WITH HER LONG DARK HAIR, FAIR SKIN  AND BLUE EYES THE COLOR OF THE OCEAN SHE SO LOVED.  SO IT IS, WITH REMEMBRANCE I SHARE THIS WITH THOSE WHO READ THIS. 

IN HER LAST YEAR OF LIFE RIGHT BEFORE HER DIAGNOSIS, SHE FOUND LOVE. SHE SAID TO ME SOMETHING I WILL NEVER FORGET.  AFTER HER WEDDING I HAD THE HONOR OF BEING A BRIDESMAID IN, SHE SAID;  “SAMMI, WOULDN’T IT BE SAD IF I DIED FROM THIS AFTER FINDING TRUE LOVE?”  I REASSURED HER SHE WOULD BEAT THIS CANCER WHICH WAS PRESENT IN HER TONGUE. 

SHE SPOKE WITH A LISP THE LAST SIX MONTHS OF HER LIFE, AND HAD NO VOICE AT ALL, THE LAST THREE MONTHS.  I AM GRATEFUL I WAS WITH HER IN THE LAST FEW DAYS OF HER LIFE.  I AM GRATEFUL FOR ALL THE WISDOM, BEAUTY AND YES, MUSIC SHE LEFT BEHIND.  I AM MOST GRATEFUL FOR MY BEAUTIFUL NIECES.  I GUESS I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHERE SHE FOUND THE TIME TO BE SO MUCH TO SO MANY,  SPREADING LOVE AND JOY. 

GOD BLESS YOU JEN.  I KNOW HE HAS YOU AND YOUR MAJESTY AND GRACE IN HIS ARMS.  I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANY WORDS COULD EXPRESS.  I STAND IN “REMEMBRANCE AND HONOR” TO BE YOUR SISTER.  I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER.  SAMMI JO AKA SAMANTHA LEBOEUF DAILYWISDOMWORDS.COM

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