CHRISTMAS EVE AND JENNY

MERRY CHRISTMAS-EVE!  BECAUSE OF FAMILY IN TOWN, I WON’T BE POSTING TOMORROW!  CHRISTMAS-EVE IS SO SPECIAL TO ME STARTING WITH MY OWN CHILDHOOD.  MY MOTHER, ALTHOUGH WE WERE CERTAINLY NOT RICH, ALWAYS MADE CHRISTMAS SO SPECIAL FOR US.  I WAS VERY VERY CLOSE WITH MY LITTLE SISTER, WHO MANY OF YOU KNOW DIED THIS YEAR FROM ORAL CANCER PASSING AWAY ON JUNE 27TH, 2020.  

AS KIDS, WE CONSTANTLY PLAYED TOGETHER.  WE WERE QUITE CREATIVE!  WE WOULD WRITE PLAYS ACTING THEM OUT, AS EARLY AS 6 AND 9 YEARS OF AGE, MAYBE EVEN EARLIER.  WHAT SEPARATED JENNY AND I AS I CALLED HER, WAS AN AGE DIFFERENCE OF JUST OVER 3 YEARS, 3 YEARS, 2 MONTHS, TO BE EXACT.  IT DIDN’T MATTER.  WE GOT ALONG SO WELL AND THE MEMORIES MADE ARE FOREVER IN MY HEART.  I WILL HOLD EVEN TIGHTER TO THESE MEMORIES WITHOUT HER THIS FIRST CHRISTMAS.  WE PLAYED SCHOOL, AND I WAS THE TEACHER!  WE HAD GIRLS THAT LIVED NEXT STORE TO US THAT OFTEN CAME OVER TO PLAY AS WELL, MAKING OUR CLASSROOMS AND PLAYS EVEN LARGER.  IT IS SO FUNNY HOW WE COULD CREATE SO MUCH..EVEN THOUGH WE WERE HALF-SISTERS, (WHICH I DIDN’T KNOW UNTIL I WAS 11 YEARS OF AGE), WE WERE SO CLOSE.  AS WE GREW UP, WE WOULD HAVE PERIODS OF SEPARATE INTERESTS STARTING WITH ME IN MIDDLE SCHOOL. 

AT THAT TIME, SEVENTH AND EIGHTH GRADE WAS HELD AT A SEPARATE SCHOOL.  AT THE END OF YOUR SIXTH GRADE, YOU WERE MOVED FROM ELEMENTARY SCHOOL TO MIDDLE SCHOOL FOR TWO YEARS.  THIS ENCOMPASSED SEVENTH AND EIGHTH GRADE FOR ME, AND THIS WOULD BE WHEN JENNY AND I TEMPORARILY HAD DIFFERENT INTERESTS.  HONESTLY, I ALWAYS FELT DIFFERENT FROM EVERYONE ELSE.  I FELT INSECURE, AND AWKWARD, BEING TALL AND CHUBBY OR SO I THOUGHT.  THE FRIENDS I HAD WERE THE GIRLS NEXT STORE WHO WERE SISTERS THEMSELVES.  ONE OF THEM WAS A BULLY AND WEEKLY, SHE WOULD BEAT ME UP, ABUSE ME AND I LIVED IN FEAR OF HER.  THE OTHER SISTER WAS MY BEST FRIEND, AND MY SAME AGE.  THEY ALSO WERE HALF-SISTERS IRONICALLY.  

OUR HOME IN PHOENIX WAS CLOSE ENOUGH TO WALK TO SCHOOL ALL OF ELEMENTARY, MIDDLE AND HIGH SCHOOL.  MANY ISSUES I HAD DID HAVE TO DO WITH SHELLY, THE OLDER SISTER NEXT STORE.  ON THE WAY HOME, SHE WOULD OFTEN BEAT ME UP.  KAREN, WHO WAS MY BEST FRIEND, REALLY DIDN’T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH THIS.  SHELLY WAS OLDER, AND KIND OF RULED THE ROOST THROUGH INTIMIDATION.  SHELLY WOULD TAKE MY LUNCH OUT OF MY HANDS, AND IF I HAD ANYTHING SHE WANTED, SHE WOULD TAKE IT.  THEY WERE FINANCIALLY BETTER OFF THAN US, SO OFTENTIMES I WOULD FIND MYSELF SCRAPPING UP LOOSE CHANGE AROUND THE HOUSE.  ONE YEAR WHEN I WAS ELEVEN, I SAVED ALL YEAR THROUGH FOR CHRISTMAS.  JENNY AND I WERE BOTH SAVING EVERY PENNY WE COULD DOING ANYTHING WE WERE ABLE TO EARN MONEY.  I WANTED EVERYONE THAT YEAR IN MY FAMILY TO HAVE NICE CHRISTMAS GIFTS.  I MENTIONED TO KAREN, SHELLY’S LITTLE SISTER, I HAD SAVED $90 ROUGHLY AND SOMEHOW SHELLY FOUND OUT.  WE HAD AN OPEN DOOR POLICY WITH SHELLY AND KAREN.  ONE DAY, WHEN THE FAMILY WAS GONE, RIGHT AFTER SHARING THIS INFORMATION WITH KAREN, MY MONEY WENT MISSING ONE DAY WHEN WE WERE NOT HOME.  I KNEW SHELLY HAD TAKEN IT, BUT WAS AFRAID TO SPEAK UP FOR MYSELF.  WHAT I DID NOT KNOW IS YEARS OF THIS, STUFFING MY FEELINGS HAD BUILT UP INSIDE ME.  ONE DAY IN EIGHTH GRADE, SHELLY BEGAN THE USUAL BULLYING.  I FINALLY STOOD UP TO HER, AND INSTEAD OF HER BEATING ME UP, I BEAT HER UP AND SHE NEVER TOUCHED OR ABUSED ME AGAIN. THIS GAVE ME LONG OVERDUE CONFIDENCE AND BY THE TIME I WAS A FRESHMAN STARTING HIGH SCHOOL I WAS STRONGER WITHIN.  I WAS DIFFERENT FROM OTHER KIDS, ESPECIALLY BEING A VERY SENSITIVE CHILD.  I STARTED TO EMBRACE MY UNIQUENESS IN HIGH SCHOOL AND BECAME FRIENDS WITH SOME VERY POPULAR PEOPLE.  THEY ALWAYS SAID HI TO ME AND I WOULD BE SO HAPPY I WAS MAKING NEW FRIENDS, ALTHOUGH KAREN AND I REMAINED CLOSE.  I WAS PRETTY WELL LIKED IN MY JUNIOR-SENIOR YEAR AND MANY PEOPLE THOUGHT I WAS A “HUMOROUS” PERSON.  I LOVED IT AND BECAME QUITE THE HAM.

EVERY YEAR AT CHRISTMAS TIME, JENNY AND I WOULD REBOND.  WHEN I WAS 15, I MET MY FIRST SERIOUS BOYFRIEND, ROD.  MY FAMILY DID NOT CARE FOR HIM.  MY MOTHER WENT SO FAR AS TO RESTRICT ME FROM SEEING HIM.  JENNY KNEW EVERY SINGLE PERSONAL DETAIL ABOUT ME, AND NEVER ONCE SHARED THEM WITH ANYONE ELSE.  I DEVELOPED AN UNDYING TRUST WITH HER.  WHEN I WAS A SENIOR, JENNY WAS A FRESHMAN AT THE SAME HIGH SCHOOL.  SHE HAD A MATURITY ABOUT HER AND LIKE TO HANG WITH MY FRIENDS RATHER THAN OTHERS HER OWN AGE.  THEY LOVED HER.  MY BEST FREIND IN HIGH SCHOOL OTHER THAN JENNY WAS SHELLY.  SHELLY ALSO BECAME CLOSE WITH JENNY, BUT EVERY CHRISTMAS AND HOLIDAY SEASON, DESPITE ANY IRRITATION WITH FROSH JENNY, WE BONDED ONCE AGAIN.  WE HAD TIME OFF FROM SCHOOL FOR THE HOLIDAYS, AND I WOULD TELL HER EVERY SORDID DETAIL ABOUT ROD, THE BOY I WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE SEEING! 

WE HAD A WINDOW AND SHARED A BEDROOM WITH A BIG WINDOW LOCATED RIGHT OUTSIDE TO OUR BACKYARD DIRECTLY BY A FENCE WE BOTH COULD CLIMB.  I BEGAN LYING TO SEE ROD.  JENNY NEVER LET ME DOWN.  SHE NEVER SHARED EVEN ONE SECRET WITH MY MOM. WHEN SHE WAS 13, SHE HAD HER FIRST SERIOUS BOYFRIEND, AND BEGAN SNEAKING OUT THE SAME WINDOW TO SEE HIM, CLIMBING THE FENCE, AND I RETURNED THE FAVOR ALTHOUGH I TOLD HER, “STAY AWAY FROM THE WINDOW. JENNY!  IT WILL LEAD TO TROUBLE. SHE WAS OBSTINATE JUST LIKE ME AND  NOTHING I SAID OR DID, MADE ANY DIFFERENCE.  WE BOTH BROUGHT PLENTY OF TROUBLE TO HOME DURING THOSE YEARS.  ALTHOUGH I APPEARED IRRITATED SHE’D HANG WITH MY OLDER CROWD, I LOVED IT INSIDE.  JENNY WAS FULL OF LIFE AND DIVERSITY, MUCH MORE SECURE WITH HERSELF THAN I WAS, AND EVERYONE LOVED HER THEN AND NOW, UNTIL THE DAY SHE DIED IN JUNE THIS YEAR.  

MY SISTER AND I TOOK DIFFERENT PATHS AFTER MY LAST YEAR AT HIGH SCHOOL AS I CHOSE TO GO TO COLLEGE TWO AND A HALF HOURS AWAY FROM HOME AND SHE STAYED IN PHOENIX ATTEND ARIZONA STATE FOR A WHILE.  HER PASSION FOR ACTING, SINGING, AND FAMILY REMAINED.  SHE MADE FRIENDS SO FAST AND HAD SO MANY THEN UP TO HER DEATH.  HOWEVER, WE ALWAYS BONDED AT CHRISTMAS TIME WHEN WE BOTH CAME HOME OVER CHRISTMAS.  WE WOULD SIT AND TELL SECRETS IN OUR OLD ROOM MY MOTHER LEFT EMPTY AND BOND.  STILL MY MOTHER MADE CHRISTMAS SPECIAL FOR ALL OF US.  I PROMISED MYSELF WHEN I HAD MY OWN FAMILY I WOULD DO THE SAME.  I DID.  JENNY ULTIMATELY MOVED TO LOS ANGELES AFTER HER FIRST MARRIAGE AND DEATH OF HER BEAUTIFUL LITTLE GIRL, HILLARY.  HILLARY WAS THREE WHEN SHE DIED OF SIDS AND UP UNTIL HER FINAL DAY OF LIFE, HILLARY WAS TAKEN WITH HER IN MEMORY AND HEART.  JENNY BEGAN STAYING IN LOS ANGELES OVER CHRISTMAS, BUT TWICE OR MORE A YEAR WE WOULD HAVE A SISTER’S VISIT.  

IF I HAD AN ISSUE, JENNY WAS THE ONE I TURNED TO.  SHE WAS AN “OLD SOUL” AND VERY WISE.  I ALWAYS KNEW IN MY HEART SHE COULD BE TRUSTED.  NEVER ONCE DID SHE LET ME DOWN WITH ADVICE, GUIDANCE AND TRUST.  LIFE HAS EVOLVED, HER HAVING TWO BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTERS, MY NIECES, AND MY CHILDREN GROWN WITH MY DAUGHTER LIVING OUT OF STATE IN IDAHO.  MY BEST MEMORIES WERE OF CHRISTMAS EVE, AND I AM EMBARRASSED TO SHARE I STILL SORTA BELIEVED IN SANTA UNTIL I WAS ELEVEN.  WISE “JENNY” FIGURED THE TRUTH OUT LONG BEFORE THAT BUT THE HOLIDAYS BROUGHT US CLOSE ONCE AGAIN.  I DIDN’T MEAN TO WRITE A NOVEL, BUT MY HEART TOOK ME TO THESE MEMORIES.  I MISS AND LOVE HER SO VERY MUCH.  THANK YOU MOM FOR ALL YOU DID TO GIVE US THE WONDERFUL MEMORIES WE HAVE OF CHRISTMAS AND ALWAYS HAVING TRADITIONS AND FOLLOWING THEM.  YOU TRULY ARE BEYOND AMAZING, AND I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH.  YOU ARE SOMEONE WHO IS NOT ONLY A MOTHER, BUT A BEST FRIEND.  GOD BLESS YOU FOR ALL YOU GIVE AND HAVE GIVEN OF YOURSELF.  I WILL FOREVER BE IN GRATITUDE YOU GAVE US ONE ANOTHER, AND PUT A FAMILY TOGETHER LIKE GLUE.  YOU ARE STILL HERE AND FOR THIS I COULD NOT BE MORE GRATEFUL.  

FROM MY HEART TO YOURS, MERRY CHRISTMAS, HAPPY HOLIDAYS AND REMEMBER WHAT CHRISTMAS IS ALL ABOUT.  FIRST, THE BIRTH OF JESUS CHRIST.  BUT SECOND, THE MOMENTS IN TIME THAT WILL REMAIN FROZEN IN TIME IN A CAPSULE OF LOVE WITH FAMILY INCLUDING YOU.  THIS LOSS HAS AFFECTED ALL OF US IS SO MANY DIFFERENT WAYS.  JENNY, I WILL LIGHT A CANDLE IN HONOR OF YOU TODAY.  MAY YOU REST WITH THE ANGELS AND WATCH OVER ALL OF US.  YOU BROUGHT LOVE, LIFE, HAPPINESS, JOY AND HUMOR BUT MOSTLY YOU BROUGHT ENDLESS LOVE FOR ALL OF US.  I THANK YOU MY LITTLE SISTER FOR ALL WE HAD.  MAY YOU REST IN PEACE AND TRADITIONS CONTINUE ON WITHIN OUR FAMILY.  GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND I DO LOVE MY MEMBERS AND TEAM WHO DESERVE AN EXTA SPECIAL THANK YOU AND LOVE ALL AROUND.  THANK YOU TWITTER, FACEBOOK WRITERS WHO ARE MEMBERS OR WHO ARE NOT.  MUCH LOVE AND MANY BLESSINGS TO EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU…SAMANTHA

Samantha Leboeuf-founder/daily wisdom words, LLC
Founder: Daily Wisdom Words, LLC. I love Poetry and am an Author as well.   There is a lot of meaning in the title of my book, Daily Wisdom Words, Volume l. My previous experience is in Sales and Marketing. Previously, I was in charge of Development through the Marketing and Sales of New Homes' in new home communities for close to 20 years.  I was a licensed Real Estate Broker selling/listing homes in the Colorado market.  While doing this, I hosted a cable network show called, "From Trees to Keys", my portion for Colorado Living Inc.. I enjoyed creating interview questions, working for Developers of New Home Communities, hosting Live on actual construction sites, describing and displaying on television camera various stages of construction as the home was built from start to finish. I interviewed various land developers, New Home Builders, Real Estate Brokers, and other people in the Real Estate Business for one year. Previous Experience: I was licensed through the "Securities and Exchange Commission" as a Principal for Limited Partnerships and sold them as well. I held a Series 22, 63, as well as License, to manage a brokerage firm called a series 39. I enjoyed running a small branch office of an Oil and Gas Company in Colorado for approximately one year. Hobbies: I have always loved Poetry and Writing.  I was declared "Permanently Disabled" due to Breast Cancer and CRPS-(Chronic Regional Pain Syndrome).  I began focusing on my writing. I volunteered for an online poetry community,  "Realistic Poetry" for approximately six months. I decided to start Daily Wisdom Words, LLC after volunteering for an online poetry community and thinking of ways that I would improve this concept and offer something for every KIND of #Writer:  Authors, Bloggers, Poets, Songwriters, Original Quote Creatives, and short story writers. I have two grown children, a son, 33, and a daughter 31,  who lives in Idaho with her husband. They have a son, my first grandchild who will be three years old, soon!  They welcomed their second child, Easton Jay into the world, 5/4//2021. Updates are necessary as my son is now married to my lovely daughter-in-law who is awesome.  She just gave birth to their first son on 5/5/2021, who is so beautiful having the name Logan James Leboeuf. This is her and my son's first child.  Hard to believe their child has a birthday one day ahead of my daughter and son-in-law's second child, Little E.  So exciting!!  I love children! Thanks so much for reading!  We humbly love this community and the members who are part of it. We think of ourselves as a family, and every member makes up part of it.  Please view our website, dailywisdomwords.com fully as it is constantly changing!!  We are always adding new prompts, and new content, and are so very proud to be debuting with our first podcast, "Daily Wisdom Words Podcast."  Episode #101 with Dr. Dream, Kelly Sullivan Walden.  She will be our first guest.  Please watch as it airs 6/12/2021 June 12, 2021 9:00 am pacific time.  Thank you in advance if you are new to daily wisdom words, and welcome to the family. Samantha LeBoeuf
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Johnny Brower
11 months ago

Thank you Sam for these beautiful memories. They make me know how Gypsy ( Jenny) grew to be such a selfless caring person who would give you anything she had if you needed it. I loved her from the first moment I met her and never stopped. You know I shared for the first time on that last day that I always hoped we might be together again, and though it was not to be, I treasured the closeness we had bringing up Bella and Luma. To this day and forever there has been no one I have loved more… Read more »

Samantha
11 months ago
Reply to  Johnny Brower

I love you so much Johnny. I can’t thank you enough for the beautiful response. I find daily, jen played such a unique and special role in all of our lives. Tonight we said grace and I lit a candle to honor and cherish her. Love you and those girls. Merry Christmas

Michelle
11 months ago

Merry Christmas to you n your family dear sam . I hear the humming of stars keyed up in your story n it just warms my heart. Sending you lots of love n warmth. 💗🎄🤗🌞💕

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Samantha
11 months ago
Reply to  Michelle

You are so very kind Michelle. I love you and pray that you are safe. I absolutely love the picture. Much love, many blessings

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