PERSONALITY DISORDERS

FUGUE “WHAT HAPPENED TO HANNAH UPP?

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OUR DAILY WISDOM WORD TODAY IS “FUGUE”.   I WANT TO SHARE THE MEANING OF FUGUE FROM THE WEBSTER DICTIONARY WHICH IS A PARTIAL DEFINITION THAT APPLIES TO THIS POST AND THE DAILY WISDOM WORD MEANING BEFORE GOING FURTHER. 

WEBSTER DICTIONARY MEANING OF FUGUE-1.  A STATE OR PERIOD OF LOSS OF AWARENESS OF ONE’S IDENTITY, OFTEN COUPLED WITH FLIGHT FROM ONE’S ENVIRONMENT ASSOCIATED WITH MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES INCLUDING DISASSOCIATIVE PERSONALITY DISORDER KNOW AS D.I. D. 

DAILY WISDOM WORD DEFINITION-A STATE OF LOSS OF ONE’S SELF WHEN AN ALTERNATE PERSONALITY TAKES CONTROL IN AN INDIVIDUAL AND THIS ALTERNATE REALITY TAKES OVER ONE’S LIFE FOR TEMPORARY PERIODS OF TIME.  THE INDIVIDUAL AFTER COMING OUT OF A FUGUE HAS NO MEMORY OR RECOGNITION OF THE TIME THAT HAS ELAPSED DURING THIS FUGUE STATE WHEN SWITCHING BACK. 

AFTER A FUGUE, THERE IS USUALLY NO MEMORY OF THE PLACES GONE OR THE TIME PERIOD WHICH CAN BE MONTHS OR YEARS IN THAT INDIVIDUALS MEMORY DURING THEIR DISAPPEARANCE. 

A FUGUE IS USUALLY ASSOCIATED WITH PAST TRAUMA THAT HAS NOT BEEN DEALT WITH.  THE BEST WAY TO EXPLAIN A FUGUE IS FROM SHARING THE STORY OF HANNAH UP. UPP LIVED IN THE VIRGIN ISLANDS, USA AND WENT MISSING IN SEPTEMBER 2017.  A HURRICANE, CATEGORY 5, HAD JUST HIT THE ISLAND A FEW DAYS BEFORE HANNAH WENT MISSING ANOTHER HURRICANE HIT THE ISLAND, ALSO A CATEGORY 5,  JUST A FEW DAYS AFTER HANNAH UPP’S DISAPPEARANCE. HANNAH TO SET UP HER CLASSROOM FOR THE UPCOMING SCHOOL YEAR ABOUT TO START. SHE WOKE UP THE DAY AFTER THIS, AND WAS LAST SEEN AT APPROXIMATELY 8:00 AM THAT MORNING LEAVING IN HER CAR.  SHE HAS NOT BEEN SEEN SINCE. 

A SEARCH WENT ON FOR TWO DAYS COMBING THE ISLAND LOOKING FOR HANNAH AND THEN HURRICANE MARIA, ANOTHER CATEGORY 5 HIT.  MANY PEOPLE WERE REPORTED MISSING AFTER THE HURRICANE, AND THE PRIORITY OF FINDING HANNAH WAS TEMPORARILY PUT ASIDE DURING THIS CHAOS. 

HER FRIENDS, BEGAN SEARCHING FOR HER AGAIN AND FOUND HER CAR WITH HER WALLET AND HUNDREDS OF DOLLARS STILL IN IT ALONG WITH HER CREDIT CARDS AND IDENTIFICATION.  THE KEYS ALONG WITH GARMENTS WERE FOUND ALONG THE BEACH AFTER HANNAH LEFT A NOTE SAYING SHE HAD GONE FOR A SWIM. 

WHAT BEGAN AS A MISSING PERSONS CASE, WAS REEXAMINED AFTER RESCUERS FOUND THAT HANNAH UPP HAD DISAPPEARED PRIOR TO THIS IN NEW YORK CITY FIVE YEARS EARLIER FOR ALMOST A MONTH AND  APPROXIMATELY A YEAR LATER AGAIN, DISAPPEARED FOR EIGHT DAYS, AFTER RESCUERS FOUND HER, BARELY SAVING HER LIFE.  UPP WAS LOCATED  IN STATEN ISLAND WATERS WHERE A FERRY FOUND HER FACE DOWN IN WATER AFTER SEEING WHAT LOOKED LIKE A HUMAN HEAD JUST ABOVE THE WATER, INVESTIGATING FURTHER.  

AFTER THOSE TWO PRIOR INCIDENTS, SHE HAD NO MEMORY OF HER WHEREABOUTS OR TIME ELAPSED DURING THESE EPISODES.  SHORTLY AFTER HER FIRST DISAPPEARANCE, SHE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH THE RARE MENTAL HEALTH CONDITION OF “FUGUE DISORDER”.  

 IT UPSET ME ENOUGH AFTER READING A FOX NEWS ARTICLE AND SEEING FLIPPANT COMMENTS FROM THOSE WHO BELIEVE SHE DISAPPEARED AND DID NOT WANT TO BE FOUND, WITH NO CONSIDERATION OR KNOWLEDGE OF THIS CONDITION.  SOMEWHERE AFTER BEING DIAGNOSED BY PSYCHIATRISTS, WITH A CONDITION, A “FUGUE DISORDER.”   MANY COMMENTS SUGGEST SHE WANTED TO DISAPPEAR OR MAKE LIGHT OF THIS DUE TO A LACK OF UNDERSTANDING OF THIS CONDITION.

THIS IS A VERY REAL MENTAL HEALTH ILLNESS, AND COMMENTS POSTED UNDER HER NEWS STORY SEEM TO BE FLIPPANT AND UNACCEPTABLE.  I FELT IT NECESSARY TO EXPLAIN THIS TO ENLIGHTEN OTHERS. 

THIS IS A CONDITION WHERE THE PERSON IN A FUGUE GOES ON AUTO-PILOT AND HAS NO MEMORY OF THE TIME LAPSE OR ACTIONS THEY EXPERIENCED IN THIS ALTERNATE STATE.  THIS CONDITION AFFECTS APPROXIMATELY 2 IN EVERY THOUSAND INDIVIDUALS AND OFTEN IS ASSOCIATED WITH DISSOCIATIVE PERSONALITY DISORDER BUT NOT EXCLUSIVE TO THIS ILLNESS AS IT CAN HAPPEN AS A CONDITION OF ITS OWN. 

HANNAH UPP HAS NOT BEEN SEEN UP TO THE DATE OF THIS POST AFTER DISAPPEARING IN THE VIRGIN ISLANDS IS EARLY SEPTEMBER, 2017. 

ALL THREE INCIDENTS TOOK PLACE IN EARLY FALL AND ALL THREE INCIDENTS WERE NEAR WATER.  HOWEVER IT NOW HAS BEEN ALMOST FOUR YEARS SINCE HANNAH DISAPPEARED.  HER MOTHER HOLDS OUT HOPE THAT SHE IS IN A FUGUE STATE NOW AND STILL WRITES TO HER DAUGHTER BECAUSE OF THIS INCIDENT BEING SO EERILY FAMILIAR FROM THE TWO PRIOR DISAPPEARANCES HOLDING ONTO HOPE HER DAUGHTER IS STILL ALIVE.

DISAPPEARING FOR A MONTH OR A LITTLE OVER A WEEK IS MUCH DIFFERENT THAN THIS TIME FRAME OF CLOSE TO FOUR YEARS. 

WHAT HAPPENED TO HANNAH UPP?    WE WOULD LOVE TO HEAR INSIGHTFUL, THOUGHTFUL COMMENTS WITH YOUR OPINIONS AND OR THOUGHTS.  SHE WAS A BEAUTIFUL PERSON AND HER FRIENDS NOTE SHE WAS SUCH AN INSPIRATION TO OTHERS AND SUCH A BRIGHT SPOT IN THEIR LIVES.  https://www.nytimes.com/2017/09/29/nyregion/missing-teacher-virgin-islands.html

PLEASE POST YOUR THOUGHTS AND COMMENTS ON OUR DAILY WISDOM WORD, FUGUE AND INTEGRATE THE STORY WITH  ITS DEFINITION.  PLEASE LEAVE COMMENTS RESPECTFUL AND EMPATHETIC.   HER MOTHER AND LOVED ONES SHOULD BE CONSIDERED, AS WELL OF HER MENTAL HEALTH DISORDER, A FUGUE PERSONALITY DISORDER. 

THANKS SO MUCH, SAMANTHA LEBOEUF

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GRANDIOSITY “WHAT IT SAYS ABOUT US”

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GRANDIOSITY WILL BE OUR DAILY WISDOM WORD TODAY.  WHAT DOES THIS DAILY WISDOM WORD MEAN?  DOES IT APPLY TO YOU?  BEFORE GOING ANY FURTHER, LETS TAKE A LOOK AT THE MEANING OF THIS WORD IN OUR WEBSTER DICTIONARY AND THE DAILY WISDOM WORD DEFINITION OF GRANDIOSITY. 

WEBSTER DEFINITION OF GRANDIOSITY-1.  IMPRESSIVE OR SIGNIFICANT IN APPEARANCE OR STYLE.  2.  ONE WHO’S EXCESSIVELY GRAND OR AMBITIOUS. 

DAILY WISDOM WORD DEFINITION OF GRANDIOSITY-FEELING OMNI-POWERFUL OR ONE WHO HAS A LARGE EGO.  2. A WORD USED TO DESCRIBE ONE WHO OPERATES FROM THEIR EGO RATHER THAN INTERNAL BEING.  

GRANDIOSITY IS A QUALITY ASSOCIATED WITH MANY THINGS, AND ONE OF THEM IS NARCISSISM.  IT IS ALSO A SYMPTOM OF NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY DISORDER.  GRANDIOSITY CAN ALSO STAND ALONE IN ITS MEANING AND WHAT IT SAYS ABOUT WHO WE ARE.  DO WE OPERATE AND INTERACT WITH OTHERS USING OUR EGO?  IF YOU ARE NOT GRANDIOSE, YOU MOST LIKELY HAVE SEEN IT IN ANOTHER PERSON THROUGH THEIR ACTIONS. 

THESE ARE THOSE INDIVIDUALS WHO BRAG ABOUT THEMSELVES.  THEY EXPRESS THESE QUALITIES OUTWARD BUT THEY ORIGINATE FROM OUR EGO. THE LETTERS IN THE WORD “EGO” FOR ME STAND FOR “EMITTING GOD OURSELVES”.  WE ARE NOT GOD’S OR EXTRAORDINARY FROM SOMEONE ELSE.  BECAUSE SOMEONE WHO HAS THIS TRAIT TENDS TO VERBALIZE HIS OR HER AMAZING ASSETS, MAKES YOU WONDER IF THEY ARE INSECURE TO BE DOING THIS.  YOU ARE CORRECT TO ASSUME THIS. 

GRANDIOSITY, NOT ONLY BEING A SIGN OF THE PERSONALITY DISORDER OF NPD, IS ALSO A PERSONALITY TRAIT THAT MAY STAND ALONE.  GRANDIOSITY IS  DEMONSTRATED BEST IN ONE ALWAYS OVER THE TOP IN THEIR EXPECTATIONS AND  WHEN YOU SEE ONE WHO IS GRANDIOSE IN ACTION.  THEY ARE THOSE INDIVIDUALS WHO BELIEVE THEMSELVES TO BE BETTER THAN YOURSELF.  HOWEVER, BEHIND THEIR EGO, IS A VERY INSECURE INDIVIDUAL. 

I WILL USE MONEY AS A EXAMPLE.  MOST PEOPLE WHO TRULY ARE RICH, DON’T FEEL A NEED TO TELL OTHERS THEY ARE WEALTHY OR SHOW OFF.  IN FACT, OFTEN THEY ARE HUMBLE AND DO THEIR BEST NOT TO SHARE THIS WITH OTHERS IN FEAR OF INTIMIDATING THEM.   ONE WHO IS GRANDIOSE IS ALSO THE KIND OF PERSON DELIBERATELY TAKING A MONEY CLIP WITH MUCH CASH IN THE CLIP MAKING SURE OTHERS SEE IT. 

GRANDIOSITY IS NOT ONLY A QUALITY IN THOSE WHO ARE INSECURE BUT CAN BE A POTENTIAL SIGN OF THE PERSONALITY OF A NARCISSIST.  THANKS SO MUCH FOR READING TODAY.  HAVE A COMMENT?  PLEASE DO SHARE YOUR THOUGHTS NOT ONLY ABOUT WHAT YOU’VE READ, BUT HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT GRANDIOSITY.  EITHER  “JOIN THE DISCUSSION” BENEATH THIS POST, OR BE THE FIRST TO START ONE.  THANKS SO MUCH FOR READING ABOUT GRANDIOSITY TODAY.  SAMANTHA L/DAILY WISDOM WORDS FOUNDER

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PRINCIPLES DO WE COMPROMISE THEM?

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DO WE COMPROMISE OUR PRINCIPLES?  WHAT EXACTLY DO THEY MEAN AND HOW IMPORTANT ARE THEY TO US?  SOMETIMES, HOW IMPORTANT PRINCIPLES ARE TO US, DETERMINE HOW IMPORTANT IT IS WE TO US TO HAVE OUR OWN VALUES.  PRINCIPLES ARE THE WHOLE BASIS OF WHO WE ARE AND WHAT IS IMPORTANT TO US IN OUR OWN LIVES.  “PRINCIPLES ARE SOMETHING WE SHOULD NEVER COMPROMISE.”  I  FEEL STRONGLY ABOUT THIS BECAUSE I KNOW IN MY PAST WHENEVER I HAVE COME EVEN CLOSE TO COMPROMISING MY OWN PRINCIPLES, OR, IN SOME CASES, DECIDED TO IGNORE THEM COMPLETELY IS WHEN I HAVE FELT THE WORST ABOUT MYSELF. 

I FELT FULL OF GUILT AND BETRAYAL NOT TOWARDS OTHERS BUT TOWARDS MYSELF.  THE PRINCIPLES WE GROW UP FORMING,  ARE WHAT THIS REGIMENTATION IS PARTLY BASED ON. ANOTHER REASON WHICH WE DEVELOP PRINCIPLES COMES FROM WHAT WE ARE TAUGHT IS RIGHT OR WRONG AND IF WE SAW OUR PARENTAL FIGURE FOLLOWING THE RULES THEY ARE TEACHING.   

WHAT WE LEARN FROM THE LEADERS IN OUR CHILDHOOD ON A DAY TO DAY BASIS IF IT IS NOT JUST WORDS, BUT THE ACTIONS OF THE PARENTS REFLECT WHAT THEY WANT OUR PRINCIPLES TO BE. IS ONE PART OF HOW OUR PRINCIPLES ARE DETERMINED.  THE OTHER HALF OF WHAT DETERMINES OUR PERSONAL PRINCIPLES IS OUR PERSONALITY STAMPED IN WHO WE ARE.  I HAVE HAD FRIENDS THAT HAVE ALSO INFLUENCED MY PRINCIPLES.  SOME FRIENDS, THE FRIENDS I ADMIRED, SET SOME OF THE EXAMPLES I PERCEIVED POSITIVELY.  THOSE PRINCIPLES SHAPED MY PRINCIPLES  THAT STUCK MORE SO IN MY TEENAGE YEARS.  I WOULD OFTEN FIND MYSELF CONSCIOUSLY JUDGING THESE INDIVIDUALS AFTER ANALYZING THEIR PRINCIPLES. 

I  SHOULD HAVE BEEN MORE INDEPENDENT DEVELOPING MY PRINCIPLES IN MY TEENAGE YEARS WHICH ARE THE FORMATIVE YEARS I BELIEVE OUR PRINCIPLES STICK.  I FOUND MYSELF INSTEAD,  ASSESSING OTHERS TO DETERMINE WHAT I LIKED OR DID NOT LIKE ABOUT MY BELIEFS INCLUDING LOOKING AT MY OLDER SIBLINGS.  JUDGEMENT SHOULD BE THEIR OWN  FOR THEIR MORALS AND VALUES WHICH I BELIEVE ULTIMATELY FORM OUR PRINCIPLES. I PERSONALLY HOWEVER, DETERMINED WHAT I BELIEVED IN BY WATCHING OTHERS, WHAT THEY DID WRONG OR RIGHT IN MY BOOK AND LOOKED AT THEIR MISTAKES AND ACCOMPLISHMENTS INSTEAD OF MY OWN.  I THINK THIS IS BECAUSE I LACKED SELF-CONFIDENCE IN HIGH SCHOOL AND MY TEENAGE YEARS GROWING UP.  IF MY FRIENDS WERE SOMEONE WHO EXERCISED BEHAVIOR THAT I JUDGED AS RIGHT OR WRONG, I DEVELOPED A PRINCIPLE FROM THEIR EXPERIENCE.  MY PERSPECTIVE WAS DETERMINED THROUGH THE PEOPLE I ADMIRED.  I COULD SEE HOWEVER, THEIR PRINCIPLES WERE DEVELOPED FROM THEIR OWN MISTAKES AND ACCOMPLISHMENTS, NOT BY WATCHING ANOTHER PERSON DECIDE THEIR PRINCIPLES WERE FROM WHAT THEY EXPERIENCED.  I LATER IN LIFE IN MY COLLEGE YEARS GAINED ENOUGH CONFIDENCE TO DECIDE MY BELIEF SYSTEM THROUGH MY OWN MISTAKES.  IT IS OUR BELIEF SYSTEM THAT ULTIMATELY DETERMINES OUR PERSONAL PRINCIPLES.  A BELIEF SYSTEM CAN BE SO STRONG, IT CAN CAUSE SOME INDIVIDUALS TO SEARCH FOR THE SAME BELIEF SYSTEM IN OTHERS, AND UNTIL THEY FIND OTHERS WHOSE BELIEFS ARE SIMILAR, THEY CONTINUE TO BE LONERS.  WE ARE ALL DIFFERENT EITHER THROUGH OUR BELIEF SYSTEMS AND EXPERIENCES AND OUR PRINCIPLES.  I THINK WHEN WE FIND OURSELVES COMPROMISING THOSE BELIEFS AND PRINCIPLES, WE BEGIN TO COMPROMISE OUR OWN BELIEFS.  WHEN WE COMPROMISE OUR OWN BELIEVES, WE ARE ULTIMATELY NOT HAPPY WITH WHAT WE ARE DOING AND HOW THIS BEHAVIOR REFLECTS ON US.  WE WEAR OUR NEW ACTIONS LIKE WRINKLED CLOTHES, CHANGE US TEMPORARILY BUT NOT PERMANENTLY.  TO END WITH, WHAT DO I THINK ABOUT THE ORIGINAL QUESTION WHICH WAS, “DO WE COMPROMISE OUR PRINCIPLES?”  WE ARE ULTIMATELY UNHAPPY WITH WHO WE START TO BECOME.  THANKS SO MUCH FOR READING!  SAMANTHA/DAILYWISDOMWORDS.COM

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