Surrender is the bravest and most lucid thing a human ever does and that’s why it’s so precious to the Divine.
-Andrew Harvey

Does God hate me?

I used to think this quite often when I was younger and didn’t get my way. When I talk about not getting my way, I’m not implying desires like wanting a million dollars or a wanting a mansion.

I’m talking about simple things like getting what I want for Christmas or getting love and attention from certain people who I felt ignored by. When that didn’t happen, I was convinced that God had a vendetta against me.

It didn’t help that my mom very often would say things like “Well, that’s God’s will and we have to learn to accept it.” She wasn’t wrong but she never explained it in proper context. She never said why exactly that. If that was the case, why didn’t He exercise his will against some of my friends who would come to school every month with newer, expensive attire or new gadgets like a portable CD player? (This was the early 90’s so no iPods yet.)

As I got older, however, I began to understand the concept of being tested. I understood having faith and proverbs like “God only helps those who help themselves.” There were still times life certainly didn’t seem fair and I made sure to express that in my prayers. But I did begin to look at things from a more practical perspective. I understood that God certainly didn’t hate me (or I wouldn’t be here).

But it’s only in recent times that I’m learning, accepting and perhaps even embracing, the concept of surrendering. I resisted that for a long time because amongst us mere mortals, surrending equates to defeat.

It’s the losers that always surrender in a war. It’s a fugitive that knows he’s out of options that surrenders to law enforcement.

I didn’t grasp the fact until now that surrending to a higher power, God or the universe or both, has an entirely different meaning. It’s not defeat, it’s actually a victory. By surrendering, you increase your faith in your own strength and confidence. This is because you accept that no matter what happens He or the universe will give you the strength to deal with it.

And within that process, your relationship with the higher power also becomes stronger. While that certainly may not result in more materialistic possessions, i.e. money, property, new car, etc, it most certainly will make you mentally stronger. A little trust and faith can go a long way if it’s sincere.

At this point I feel should I should again emphasize a couple of points for further clarification. Firstly, everything I mention in this post is strictly confined to my relationship with Him. Implementation of these beliefs amongst other people can still mean defeat, at least from my perspective.

In other words, if I’m in a fight I won’t give up so easily. I’ll fight till my last breath to insure I did everything I could before throwing in the towel.

Secondly, even with a higher power, I don’t equate surrending with blind faith. If things are not going your way, you can certainly dig deeper for more decisive reasons. You can definitely engage in thoughts like I wonder what is God trying to tell me here? There must be a reason so let me try to deduct it.

The overall idea behind surrending, to me, is to accept, learn life lessons and in the process, learn to understand the power of faith and build a stronger relationship with a higher power.

What does surrending mean to you? Do you agree or disagree with points made in this article? Why or why not? Have their ever been moments in your life where your thoughts about faith where conflicted? Share your thoughts and experiences by commenting below on our secure servers.

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